I tell u the feeling of death. ...I died, I lived

(Imagine it)
Many at times I dreamt tat I was dead. The familiar dreams I had when I was young is to fell into the hole of the staircase from the hdb, but before I got dropped down the dream was stopped. But there was once, this one dream tat FEEL so real! Few months back... ...I dreamt tat

(Feel it)
When i was standing, a bullet hit me, i know the bullet had hit me, there's a pain, the feeling is

different, different from i got from any injury, in the left-chested location, it is very painful...very

very painful. .so pain I want to hold my hand to my chest and hold it, hold the location.. i

know.. i think it's my heartttt . . . . i am thinking, thinking in the split second..thinking if it is

my heart... .thinking if i will die if it is my heart.. . yes.. .I feel like holding my hands close to my

chest to feel, but not . . . why..why am i . . . i don't think i can move.. i am thinking..what am i

thinking . . what am i thinking. .but i am thinking...hang on, is it painful .. . . i can't feel

anything . . . i really cannot hold my hands to myself.. .It is not very painful, it is really not

very painful now, the pain is only like a second, it stopped already, only a second, but it spread..

this feeling is different, i am thinking.... . it spread.. .is it numb...it's very fast. . the whole body is

all the same, the whole body reaction is tremendous, like paralayzed from top to bottom . .the

feeling is very strong. . . . i know my whole body is numb already, my eyes is still open, but i

cannot see anything, my mind only keeps thinking, i only think if i really is going to die, it really

feel like i'm dying, but i cannot move, and i didn't feel like moving, my mind concentrate on my

body very hard, the feeling is really words undescribable, it is things never felt before and i

am falling backwards to the ground, i cannot control myself, i just automatically fall, i'm

like falling very slowly, more than a minute, like i never reach the ground, but i am thinking of

many things when i 'm falling to the ground, I keep thinking, I think of what I've done,

sometimes I don't know what I am thinking but I keep thinking, even if my mind is blank I keep

thinking.. .